April 9, 2020 Tisha T. Casida

Day 28 of Coronavirus Contemplations & Rage

STAY.

Today, when I walked into a “local” small grocery store in Basalt I was stopped at the door (to the approximately 500 square foot space MAYBE) and told that I could not come in unless I had a mask and gloves. I am not sure why that set me off. I guess I really don’t want to hurt people, but at this point (about 30 days after all this started – to date there have been 39 cases and 2 deaths attributed to COVID-19 in Pitkin County, Colorado) it seems like it is a bit overkill. Am I a bad or stupid person for thinking this? Thankfully I had my park gloves and some neck wrap thing in my truck. It was the second most unpleasant visit to date after accidentally going to Whole Foods during Senior Hour (because I ALWAYS go to the grocery store early).

While I was in there, an older gentleman came in and it is quite incredible how most of these people I have encountered treat me (someone pretty young and I THINK pretty healthy looking) like some carrier of disease. It really f^ck$ with your psyche. It really hurts because these are the people I work for – paying their social security and ensuring the stock market will hold their 401K. But right now, I am a potential Super Spreader I guess. I really don’t ever want to go to the grocery store again.

OBEY.

I am sad. And angry. Is this the “new normal”? Most people were a$$ho!es before, now we get to have a$$ho!ies with masks and sunglasses. I think it will be like keyboard warriors. People are more apt to show their horrible and sick nature when they can hide behind a screen, or a mask, or sunglasses.

Is it worth a fight? Is it worth a conversation (which in most cases would actually be an argument because people are so amazingly stuck on their own ideas and egos that they cannot even fathom LISTENING to someone else)?

Oh, and now that we are sterilizing everything and supposedly constantly and continuously ‘sanitizing’ our hands – does that make us more safe? Or actually more prone to disease? Isn’t there something to building immunity? Isn’t there something about letting your bacteria and immune system have SOME exposure to microbes and such because not ALL of them are scary and bad? Hmmm… for the next pandemic and crisis – I am thinking we should take a look at that. I am not sure who “we” are though. Me and Tank maybe. Great Danes cannot social distance. I build my immunity every day through Great Dane kisses.

This is how we roll down Highway 82. Tank is my navigator.
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