May 24, 2020 Tisha T. Casida

Day 73 of the New COVID Reality – It’s Getting Ugly Out There

You can feel the anger seething off of most people. Masked like a faceless victim – ruled by fear – the new God for those who refuse to ask questions, refuse to take personal responsibility, refuse to have dialogue or respectful conversation.

That seething hatred – I feel it every time I go to a store. It used to be fun to shop. It used to be fun to look around at things – at the grocery store, the nursery, the lumber-yard. It used to be fun to be a part of a capitalist society – but not anymore.

You have to be masked – so you can’t breathe or smell anything. Olfactory input is actually pretty important to the human species, and society is effectively obeying our masters to stop exploring the world with part of our senses.

You have to stand 6 feet apart – but in many retail settings it is literally impossible to pass people or shop that way, creating a constant barrage of internal questions about where you should stand, how you should move, and how you should properly comply. I needed eggs, but there were people hovering there, and I didn’t want to make them uncomfortable, so I went and hovered somewhere else waiting, but then in the meantime missed my chance to grab a container before another masked and faceless human entity swarmed in so that I continued this incredible f-ed up dance of not doing what I wanted and needed to do to make other people who could care less about me feel comfortable. Sad.

It is miserable shopping for flowers when you feel compelled to hurry and get out of there because all of the senior citizens (not all, but MANY) are glaring at you – I feel like they hate young people and would rather us not be “out and about” so they can shop without the chance of having exposure to us potential asymptomatic carriers of disease. I wish they understood that I am the one ensuring their 401K and Social Security.

It is all very uncomfortable. Very miserable. And if it is a sign of what is to come, it is time to close up shop and look into doing something different. At my store we want to offer people a beautiful shopping experience – it is hard to experience beauty when you are afraid, when you are masked and gloved. And now, according the “the experts” the best thing to do is to treat EVERYONE like they are infected . Sounds like a recipe for a disastrous and violent shopping experience.

Tank ain’t worried about none of this. My saving grace.
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